Tantrums and Sneakers

We had a very action, packed day yesterday. We started by going to church for the first mass (something we never do these days!). Then we headed off to the MS Walk. Super fun. And then we went straight from the walk to our friends birthday party. Came home. NAPPED (just me and the littlest one)!!! Then off to the mall to get ballet shoes and runners. and socks...for me and the wee one. Back home to feed littlest one and start making dinner. PHEW. So that's the coles notes version....here are the details.

So MS Walk is something we do every year. Although I was recovering from surgery last year so I missed out. My husband and daughter represented though. My Mother in law has MS and it is important for us to make that walk happen. This year, Ellie actually understood why were doing the walk. Which was awesome. We had the Steels, the Burdens, the Avens and the Volks in attendance. In 5 days, we raised $385 which is totally awesome. Here are some pics:


The whole gang that came out!

The party that we went to was very fun. The wee-est one was tired from not sleeping well in the am but really...she's a gem. She sat contentedly and then kinda fussed when she finally went to sleep. This kid is awesome. SO FAR. I am sure she will have the attitude of her oldest sister so for now...LOVE HER. Love her demeaner. Ellie's fave part of today was the party and her least fave was leaving the party.

I have no idea how to rotate this but here is the pic of her at the party.

My fave part of the day was walking with my peeps. My least fave part was the tantrum Ellie had in church. That's right...full on tantrum, yarded out of church, timeout in the car, lost party priviledges kinda tantrum. She obviously turned her tude around because she was at the party but seriously. Do we need to have a freak out session in church. Because you know that I am going to do something or say something that God would not like!!! Don't put me in this position, girl!

That's it for now...happy raining spring day.

Time Stopped

I cannot believe that time stopped for me last thursday night. And I realized how vulnerable we are and how little our children are. That night I had gone to my trainer (got my behind handed to me) and when I returned, my sick little girl (had a fever all day) was lying on the ground, seemingly unconscious with blood coming out of her mouth. I wanted to throw up. and cry and do all those things to stop the hurt that I felt but I had to find out what happened. I muttered "what happened?" and my husband said "Dana, it's ok. She had a seizure. She is fine she just needs us to hold her on her side right now...can you do that?" Ya...I can do that while I cry...sure. Then there was something about being strong because she can hear us. Then the paramedics showed up. All in all, she was fine but she didn't really become alert until we were at the hospital for at least an hour. I cannot believe how brave she was even being scared. She seemed so small to me which is funny because I am constantly noticing how big she is. Basically the ER doc determined seizure from fever. But the pediatrician we saw about a week later doesn't think that...he's testing her for epilepsy. Crazy. I know it's not the end of the world but I really don't want her to have to go through this in her lifetime. I don't want to have to worry when she takes a bath that she might have a seizure. I don't want to worry that it will happen while we sleep or while she's climbing around being a crazy 4 year old. I just want to protect her from anything bad. And in one moment, that moment when I saw her out for the count, I realized I can't do that. I cannot stop anything bad from happening to my children. And that freaks me out.

lordy lordy...look who started a blog

Alright...I started one. There. Who knows who will check this out....don't care really. If you check it out.......HEY! How the heck are ya.

Today I was ready to throw in the motherly towel. Too many things went wrong today...crankiness, not sleeping, sleeping too much, attitude reserved for teenage years, the list goes on. I'm sure that everyone has been here before. Remember what it was like when we didn't have kids...when you could just pick up at a moments notice. When you could eat at 7:30 and eat ceasar salad for dinner..........AND that's it. Remember when you didn't have to buy ketchup every 2 weeks (it is the ultimate condiment....isn't it?). Remember when you could go to a movie with your husband and a) stay out as late as you wanted, b) not fall asleep during the show and c) eat popcorn and nachos with processed cheese for dinner. Tell me this is all worth it....right?

ok...I know it is but it is fun to go back in time. Best part is that I lovingly said to my daughter "I cannot wait until you are 13". And I meant it.
To which my husband asks "why?"
"Because we will be out of this hard, baby stuff by then for sure"
I'm pretty sure at this point he snorted.
I stop him with "don't burst my bubble here...she'll be an angel at 13"
At this point I'm thinking I am delusional.